Back to blogger

She’s indecisive, she can’t decide,

She keeps on looking, from left to right.

And I’ve decided,

to switch back to Blogger once more.

Sorry for being so undecided.

Will be updating blogs again at http://yukanavibritannia.blogspot.com

Blue Bloods

I read the 4th book when I was in my shyt hole. Finished it in a day cause’ I had exam the next day.

Bought the 1st book yesterday at Popular and finished it within 5 hours today. (Call me a slow reader but I think I finished it a little too fast.) Selling at RM 34.90 plus a 5% discount if you’re a Popular member. (I’m not promoting for Popular here cause they don’t pay me to do the job)

My friend Shana Azali introduced the 4th book to me and thanks to her, this series by Melissa de la Cruz is gonna suck money from my wallet.

Within New York City’s most elite families, there lurks a secret society of celebrated Americans whose ancestors sailed on the Mayflower. They are the powerful and the wealthy—and in fact, they are not human. They are the Blue Bloods, an ancient group of vampires.

Schuyler Van Alen has never fit in at Duchesne, her prestigious New York City private school. She prefers baggy, vintage clothes instead of the Prada and pearls worn by her classmates, and she lives with her reclusive grandmother in a dilapidated mansion. Schuyler is a loner—and happy that way.

But when she turns fifteen, Schuyler’s life changes dramatically. She has a mosaic of blue veins on her arms, and craves raw meat. The death of a popular girl from Duchesne is surrounded by a mystery that haunts her. And strangest off all, Jack Force, the most popular boy in school, is showing a sudden interest in her.

Schuyler wants to find out the secrets the Blue Bloods are keeping. But is she herself in danger?

Steeped in vampire lore and set against the glittery backdrop of New York City, Blue Bloods will be devoured by fans of Melissa de la Cruz.

Think you love the Twilight Saga? Wait till you read this.

Sorry, no picture provided cause both connection and wordpress are being a bitch.

Looking forward to the gathering this Sat! ^ ^

Ignore me

I’m so reluctant nowadays.

Reluctant to talk.

Reluctant to get out from the house.

Reluctant to do anything else accept watching anime and playing the violin.

Partially, I put the blame on my PMS. PMS was not that bad when I’ve something to do.

Now that I’ve nothing to do, (Nothing productive at the moment) my thoughts and emotions goes on a rampage. I ignore you because what you said annoys me. The only way that prevents me from raising my voice and yell at you is for me to ignore your little remarks that you made about me.

Is not that I don’t care. Its not that that its not important to me. I know what I’m doing so please, I’m begging you. Let me have things my way. If you have any questions regarding not-so-important-little-issues that is bothering you, go find it out from someone else!

I have my own problems to deal with, I have my own dilemmas but have you ever wonder who am I pouring those thoughts to? NOBODY. Why is that? Because you would never understand! Its always you.you.you.YOU. I know you brought me up and everything and that I’ve to obey and respect you but isn’t that what I’m doing right now? What more are you asking for?

On the other hand, I just discovered that the thing that I’m lacking might be courage. I tend to chicken out on a lot of things. That is why I also have a lot of ‘What ifs…’ Or maybe its just because too long hours of staying indoors and lack of communication made me think that way. I just don’t dare to take the risk, for I’m afraid to lose what I have. But then again, what do I have?

Filling up those slots for the university intake forms were hard for me. I have problem choosing the course that I want. There was once I thought that I might go all out for Chemistry but then again my Chemistry results that came out a few days ago was just a so-so. Disappointing even. I can put the blame on the person who stole my Chem revision book and my own lecture notes two weeks before exam, but was it really the thief’s fault? Or was it because I lost my concentration after that event. Am I really suppose to pursue a course in Chemistry?

Why is life so confusing?

Life without a clear goal is so depressing. Its like a ghost stuck between hell and heaven, wondering among humans.

And PMS makes the whole matter a lot more worse. The only thing that is preventing me from killing myself is that I can’t find a nicer blade.

Oh don’t worry, I was just joking. But just in case that happens, you’ll know why.

Tempted to cosplay Alice from Pandora Hearts. Hohoho~ =D

Death and life

Not long ago, I went out with Joanna and Phui Yan. We had our lunch in JJ’s Sushi King.

I was just thinking that maybe its time for Sushi King to change its billing system. Or maybe their trainers should undergo longer training.

Because I, once again, ate there for free.

Why Sushi King likes to let me eat ‘Ba wong chan’ one leh? They love me too much I guess.

A novel by Paulo Coelho

I finished this book yesterday. Sambil watch badminton sambil read. Felt sorry for Choong Wei and the Malaysia’s No. 1 doubles. Watching them got toyed by China so easily was really heartbreaking. Anyhow, they tried their best. Thank you for your efforts!

Back to the book. The first Paulo Coelho’s book that I read was The Alchemist which tells a story about a boy traveling to find the world greatest treasure and the people he met along his journey. The book gave me an insight into Paulo Coelho’s world and his way of interpreting life.

The simple language and sentences he used managed to convey his ideas to his readers. I was surprised by his ideas and philosophy until a point where I laughed to myself and said: ‘Like that also can ah?’

“My Heart Is Afraid that it will have to suffer,” the boy told the alchemist one night as they looked up at the moonless sky.”Tell your heart that the fear of suffering is worse than the suffering itself. And that no heart has ever suffered when it goes in search of its dreams.” -The Alchemist

However, in Veronika Decides to Die, I found that he has some dark sense of humor. (‘People talked more openly to a psychiatrist then they did to a priest because a doctor couldn’t threaten them with Hell‘ ) The book tells a story about Veronika, who tries to suicide because she don’t have the will to live or to die and failed. She was then sent into the hospital for the mentally ill patients and was told that she only had about a week to live due to organ damage. In the hospital she met lots of people- including those that were just pretend to be ill to escape from reality.

Overall, the book was good. Those that had thoughts of killing themselves are highly recommended to read this. It tells us that the society always imposes on us a collective way of behaving, and people never stop to wonder why they should behave like that because they just accept the best possible behavior or that people go against nature because they lack the courage to be different.

Sometimes I just hope that I can just do crazy things like the mad people in the story without giving a damn what others think.

A friend just told me that the interview list for USM came out but my name was not in the list! For now just hope that I still have a chance to get into that uni.

Missing

Someone please teach me how to use WordPress. Seriously, the dashboard is so complicated. =.=

After I came back from my Taiping trip, I’ve been staying at home almost 24/7. Its not really a bad thing. Seriously. I mean, I get to spend all my time sleeping till 10 a.m everyday, read manga online and watch anime from noon till evening, read fanfictions, spend more time folding clothes and do chores. (Ah, I just LOVE doing chores. *roll eyes* Did I just label myself an Otaku? Oh yeah, I did.)

I love staying at home alone. All the peace and tranquility I have without my family around. (This sounds kinda emo but its true. Its not like I hate my family or anything.) But staying at home alone for too long is hazardous for health.

Just think that I’ve been doing too much of thinking lately. Now I know the reason for my hair loss and those premature gray strands. So just to prevent my thoughts from turning me into a psychopath that talks to walls and cut myself just because I’ve nothing to do, I decided to channel my annoyance and irritation through blogging.

Ah hah! Now I made myself sound like I’m an amateur blogger.

I love to play the violin. No doubt bout that. I still remember the first time I played the violin, I fell in love with its sound.

People always say ‘If you love something, you’ll pour in your heart and soul for it.’
‘If its what you enjoy doing, you won’t get tired of it.’

I like to work under no pressure. And I like to have fun when I’m doing my assignments. I like playing my violin just to satisfy myself and to just have fun.

I’m not playing it to become a world No. 1 violinist, (It was never on my mind) or to go for exams.

Well, what I’m trying to say is: Is it right for me to get tired of doing what I like most just because there are people who keeps pressuring me to excel in it? Or maybe I never really liked it from the bottom of my heart. Is it because of the pressure? Or simply because I lost my enthusiasm?

Maybe its time I go for another ‘journey of self discovery’ or take up another hobby.

New home!

Hey peeps!

I’ve shifted to another blog site, cause I’m too frustrated with my blogspot’s layout. Its totally ruined and I’ve no idea how to fix it again. *sobs* =’(

Anyhow, do update the links at your blog to this new one. The old blogs will be there, but I ain’t gonna update there anylonger. Sadly, it seems that wordpress don’t support Plurk. How sad. Guess I’ll just have to use Twitter then.

Will blog about my Ipoh-KL-Ipoh-Penang-Ipoh trip soon. After I come back from my Taiping trip. Hehe. I’m enjoying my life full of vacation!

Have a good day! Ciao. =)